Ok. I sent a you're welcome txt back. And a thank you for something else he did for me.
If the most that comes out of all this is that he at least wonders, "is this really worth it? Am I really making the right choice?" Even if he is too weak and cowardly to DO anything about that--well, I guess that's something.
This is taking up too much space in my brain today. I have IC but I'm not even looking forward to it.
I took our ketubah off the wall-- its a marriage certificate, but basically a big piece of artwork. It's in a prominent place in the living room and I took it down last night. I had second thoughts as i left the house this morning, but it is too late. He will see it this evening when he comes to get D. I won't be home.
I thought again about those photo booth pictures-- he wrote the bride and groom a check from our joint account which has both our names and marital home address on the check. If he took a date, or was somehow "with" someone there... ew. So tacky.
I reached out one more time to a couple of friends (wives of his friends). I haven't heard back from them in days. I know people are busy, but in this kind of situation, you find a minute to send a quick reply if you want to. So, I'm letting go of them, too. Not in anger, but I just don't have room in my brain and heart for people who don't value me. They all know where to find me if they want. And if not, it's their loss too.
