What to do with my Picnic now?

[bustingout]

KG, NLW and J3B!!!!(((((()))))))) I am so happy to 'see you' all. Thank you thank you for coming by. I've missed you all very much.how are you doing? ???

Thank you for your words of support and encouragement. I do feel at a loss these days of what is exactly going on with H. Are we coming together? Are we just co parents? Will be open up? Become vulnerable? Can I trust him? Will we move forward together? And you can imagine the questions that continue .....

I really am just living my life - and enjoying it. I want to keep going yet I feel like I have been put in another type of limbo. If this is a chance I want to do everything I can to keep it possible but I get frustrated not knowing how far I can go with h? Do I take the first steps and open up and make myself vulnerable? Actually I don't feel ready to do that. I guess this part as J3b said is really hard. Before I knew where I stood. I knew what I was doing on my own. Now I don't know if I am on my own anymore or not.

Is this all normal at this point? i just wonder if I need some new tools. I still feel this is all me. Navigating, deciding, and the future of my family depends on it.

Hard stuff. One day at a time.