Thank you, labug, and everyone for the kind words and support.
Treated myself to a good night's sleep last night, so even though I didn't get all my work done for today, at least I woke up feeling less exhausted.
We all (me, D, H) have to live with the impact of his choice to abandon the marriage. I can choose to live in the best possible way. Our choices in how we live can define us.
And while I'm not closing the door on anything, I am not actively "DBing". I am pulling back a lot, responding only when necessary, focusing just on me and my daughter.
And it may be that I push him away by doing that.
But I decided that I need this to help me fully detach. My expectations had been pretty low, and there have even been some big positives, but I was still feeling stuck.
He asked me to put D to sleep last night even though it was his night. I assume he had plans--maybe football, maybe a date, who the F cares).
So when he texted me to say thanks for filling the car up with car and for taking care of bedtime, I didn't respond. The only response I can think of that sounds honest is "you're welcome", and I feel like that would come across as nasty. Sometimes no response is a response, right?
