Had court, the order was changed to allow contact with her (peaceful contact) regarding children only for 1 year, unless she dismisses the order. The best part of this, it "forces" me to follow the rules of this forum and DB'ing. I still hold hope and will be strong.
Since I do not expect that she will contact me, i believe I should file for visitation tomorrow morning.
Oh and I am also not allowed on the property of what used to be our home for any reason during that 1 year.