My W is suggesting to schedule the lunch tomorrow (Tuesday). Last week, I had offered Wednesday or Thursday and since then I made other plans for Wednesday.
I don't know if she does it on purpose, but she constantly contradicts me on the rare things I dare to suggest. Yesterday, I asked that we use a bigger suitcase (in her possession) for the kids and she just said no, use a plastic bag if the suitcase is too small. I asked to have the kids tonight just for dinner (like we did the other weeks) and she said no, it's my week and they're happy with me. Now I offer Wednesday-Thursday and she replies with Tuesday.
My friend thinks she doesn't try to contradict or upset me. She doesn't care about me, period. She does appear to be in a state where she's not in the mood to make any compromise with me. I feel she is testing my limits, but perhaps it's innocent.
Something tells me I should stick to my guns, say I'm now busy on Wednesday and offer Thursday.
I'm slightly afraid she'll postpone to next week if I stick to Thursday. I much prefer having the lunch this week because she has the kids, so I'll be more rested than her.
I'm an emotional mess today. Not detached at all. Random memories of our years together pop in my head and swell my eyes. Lows mean there are highs on the horizon. But I've no way of knowing how I'll feel tomorrow or Thursday.
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"You can't start a fire sitting around, crying over a broken heart" - Bruce Springsteen.
