Claire, feeling better today? Sounds like you had a great weekend minus the grieving your loss.

Your question about when you will stop crying about this-I have no answer but I know that our grief lives in us and may pop up time to time. Don't take your grief as a sign that somethings's wrong with you, I think it makes you very normal. My mom's been dead for 7 years, we had a complicated relationship, and I still occasionally cry because I miss her.

I strongly believe that we can change our thoughts/change our life so I would suggest a new internal response to this: "I am someone whose husband walked out on her." to "My husband chose to walk away from our troubled marriage because of things in him. I took responsibility for my role and have used this time to become a stronger Claire."

You could also add: So he can go pound sand! smile Have a good week.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss