3 months after BD, the roller coaster ride hurts

[devotee]

So.... How do you deal with crushes during this whole ordeal? I'm a DJ and get quite a bit of attention. I've been good about just brushing it off and not entertaining it in the slightest. But there is one guy I've actually been feeling a bit of an attraction to. I won't act on it, I'm married and wear my ring still even if my H won't. But should I feel bad I'm kind of crushing on a guy? I feel like a chump with my H calling all the shots. I figure I need to detach and live for me. Is it ok to flirt and hang out with other guys or is that inviting more issues? If my H does leave me I don't want to be left on my own. Although I don't want to get anyone's hopes up if H and I stay together.

I do a see a different side of myself. In the 18 years my H and I have been together I never even thought about another guy in that way...