I see my psychiatrist twice a year for 15 minutes. Last time I talked to him I gave him a 3 minute version of what had happened and how I'm trying to handle it. He told me that while it isn't easy, he's never seen me look better. He said "in the past, you've been overwhelmed by your problems and have tried to run from them or avoid them. Now you have bigger problems, but so what, you're DEALING with them. The only people without problems are dead people, so keep learning tools to handle them as they come and it will work out". I feel I could say the same for you. This stinks, but you're taking it head on, steering your attitude, handling the bad feelings as they come, and living in a way that you can be proud of.
Oh, he also said "you're up here and she's down here. (Hand gestures). She's blaming you for everything and avoiding her own problems. As long as that happens you have to keep moving on by yourself. You can't go down there to be with her. She'll need to decide to come up here to be with you. Not everyone can do that but that's the only way."
Point is it made me realize they just aren't strong enough. Has nothing to do with you or I. Just a hard hill to climb. But we have to keep on the path. With or without them there is nothing good for us 'down there'.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15
