Something about this evening has me missing him. Not sure what, but I want to reach out to him and ask how his weekend was.
I'm not going to. I need to remind myself that he's chosen to separate our lives and very may well be starting a relationship with someone else -- who knows. Regardless, by all appearances he doesn't want me, and if he missed me, he'd be reaching out to ME.
Doesn't mean I don't love the person he is when he's not an alien and miss him.
ME: 38 BF: 40 T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice) BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R. 10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW 12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies