Something about this evening has me missing him. Not sure what, but I want to reach out to him and ask how his weekend was.

I'm not going to. I need to remind myself that he's chosen to separate our lives and very may well be starting a relationship with someone else -- who knows. Regardless, by all appearances he doesn't want me, and if he missed me, he'd be reaching out to ME.

Doesn't mean I don't love the person he is when he's not an alien and miss him.


ME: 38
BF: 40
T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice)
BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R.
10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW
12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies