You are one strong lady who has dealt with a great deal of caca in life. I know you are in a place you don't want to be, however you WILL get through to the other side.
This probably has been mentioned, but I'm just tossing out an idea. It sounds like your h likes to "hang out." I know you want to and hope that he sees the changes you are making. I would suggest pulling back a bit. Not in a cold way, just decline some things. I think that may help with your detachment a bit and help you get your mind to a better place. Just a thought.
Hang in there:-)
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
