3 months after BD, the roller coaster ride hurts

[devotee]

I did well last night. He didn't. I thought we'd had this great date night. We got home after the movie, watched some tv together and then I started falling asleep. So I asked if we could go watch in bed. He said he'd be in in a few minutes. He never came to bed. About an hour later I heard the sound of him opening the whiskey. He proceeded to get drunk and pass out. I had a friend drive me to work today. Didn't hear from H all day, so had same friend give me a ride home. H was even more drunk and now sprawled out in the bedroom. I checked in on him and he told me to let him sleèp. 6 hours later he comes out, all grumpy, says a few words and goes out to smoke. I walk the dog and now it's bedtime for me. I went and stroked his arm and said goodnight. He didn't say anything.

I'm not going to let him pull me into his depression again. I'm going to try to sleep. I don't have plans for tomorrow till I work tomorrow night. I think I'll just go biking and spend some alone time. Finally finished the book Divorce Remedy. Sticking with a lot of tips in there. Guess I'll start the other book Divorce Busting tomorrow.