You're right, I did have expectations that we'd be closer to reconciliation than we are.
He does make an effort to hang out. It's usually under the guise of something else (oh I had to stop by to pick up D's karate bag, etc) but even tonight, after a painful R talk that ended poorly, he still texted to see if I wanted to talk more. It's confusing but not negative, right.
He is still walking the walk and talking the talk even firmer than before but his actions are different. It's confusing.
He has been making changes. He's great with D. He's much more involved with her in all areas. I even heard him say today that he thinks I'm a great mom. Haven't heard that from him in years. Years.
Timelines. I've always needed them. I've always needed to know when something might end. No end in sight or even the hope of a good ending... It's unbearable. Or at least seemingly so.
