I have not seen them in a month and I miss them like crazy. I can wait, but I wasn't sure if I "should". for instance if i do call her - she will expect that she will likely predict my behavior to call her as soon as I get home from the court. I want to defy that prediction, but don't want her to think that I 'must not" love my kids if i am not diligently trying to see them. Then I remember, what she thinks and believes right now is all illogical anyway, so I feel I should ultimately wait for her to make the "first contact".
