I cannot accept that this is it.

[Zues126]

Hey bill...I don't work for them but all I can say is you can't NOT afford it. Even if you just got three sessions to get through this super volitale situation with life changing consequences. Forget about reconsciliation and focus on just trying to avoid a adversarial court battle, loss of children, and huge payouts in cs and alimony, and a lifelong enemy that poisons the kids against you. Sorry to be so dramatic, but this is a realistic worst case scenario. And while you can't guarantee this doesn't happen, it's critical you do what you can to deescalated the situation. I think this should be done today. If you have to sell some possessions, borrow some money, or whatever, do it. Now's not the time to shoot from the hip and cross your fingers.