Riding the rollercoaster

[u-turn]

Dawgy-In a way, I understand the path that you took. I have had thoughts of doing this (and worse). I know this chest thumping would never help me or our R.

A friend of a friend went this route with his W and OM. It turned out to be an embarrassment for himself, his kids, and wife. He still regrets his decision for losing it. It ended the marriage and 2 years later she married the OM.

I have thoughts that the OM must be the worst type of person in the world. How can someone have done this to his own family or mine. But then I think, the woman I love has done the same and I know that was a reaction and decision based on the troubles we were having. I don't know his story.

I find myself feeling hypocritical if I "show" this hate toward OM (though I do hate him) and am willing to forgive W. This is my inner turmoil. I know that I am a better person for it.

I hope you are well.