I need a small amount of guidance please. We have not had word 1 at all since I went to jail last month. Neither of us has tried. On the 27th, we have court for the order of protection. I do not know if she will be there or not. Regarding our kids, should I contact her to see them, or do I still wait for her contact. I believe that waiting for her might make her think I do not "care" about seeing the children. But what she thinks right now does not matter, her world is upside down.
I just do not want to make mistakes, I have no idea what Halloween will bring either.
Also, I have had feelings of giving up. It seems that even though there is an order, i expected she might still have tried to contact me, even for the kids sake, but nothing. I do not want to give up. But after all this self reflection, I wonder if I have done too much damage. I understand that I need to pick myself up, but how do I have hope without giving up, and work through the moments when I feel hopeless?
