Moving towards mediation, need to stop limbo

[shodan]

I am full of mixed emotions today. On one hand, I sense that my W wants to work on our M (based on all of the thing that I have outlined previously) but I still have no confirmation that she ended the A (which she denies was ever an A anyway), which causes me to pause.

Here are some of the positive signs in the past week or so:
- we kiss most mornings and at night but i initiate it 95% of the time. But my W does not resist.
- this morning, my D10 mentioned a house that our friend is selling. She said "I love that house". My W commented "I would buy that house if you were OK switching schools." This house is ~50% more expensive than our current home. I mentioned this because my W commented to me that one of the issues in our M for her was that I was putting pressure on her to buy a bigger house. She did not want a bigger house. Therefore, her comment to my D10 is a true 180 from where she was before. Not the talk of a WAW who wants to leave her husband and family.
- I booked a reservation this weekend for the four of us but asked my W that if she wants to make it for two to let me know so I can get a babysitter. She said "why don't we just go without the kids but let's not have a reservation. I don't want to be beholden to a reservation. Maybe we just eat at home and then go out later for a drink and/or get appetizers at the bar."
- My W went to yoga this morning and bought me a coffee from Starbucks on the way back. Small gesture.

now the more negative things (which all could be in my head):
- any affection is limited to a small kiss that I initiate
- she still seems pretty rushed...her work is killing her, so I know that is part of it
- she has showed me no transparency