Shall hate be fairer lodged than gentle love?

[Shakspr]

Jefe - dropped off my stuff at CRDN. Didn't meet Chris, talked to Nate.

So, last night, was alone for first night since divorce. Hung out with friends playing a tactical board game for a couple of hours. Tried calling children, went straight to VM. No sweat, texted XW to ask her to encourage SS15 to keep it charged.

I try to pick up a few things every day, move forward, etc. Was working up a good moment of disgust with XW as I thought about OM, her decisions, all the pain. Got to closet. Grabbed a binder that I have literally never looked at. Our engagement pictures were inside. I haven't seen that photo in years.

Folks, I still love my XW. I had a decent cry, decided yet again to hope. To DB, to make myself better every day. I choose to believe, to pray.

Something tells me that this is a decision the long-term LBS makes frequently.