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I am talking to a DB coach.

Good.

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But I still seem so lost.

Get used to it. DB is not for the faint of heart. It's a marthon not a sprint.

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She is so certain this has to happen. That she will never love me again.

That's how she feels right now. Doesn't mean she'll always feel that way. She loved you once right?

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I think she is even being colder b/c she says she does not want to do anything to give me hope.

Mindreading. Don't do that.

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I want her to try to explain how she feels it went wrong. But she doesn't want to even talk to me about it.

No, she doesn't. And you can't talk your way out of something your actions got you into.

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I am dreading lawyers etc b/c I feel she is so set in her ways and she belives I should move out, I should only get to see kids weekends etc (I want 50/50).

This alone should make you want to consult with a lawyer to protect your rights as a parent.

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She believes she does not have to go back to work and that I will support her.

As a wise counselor once told me, maybe it's time for a little dose of reality.

Read or reread DB/DR.

GAL.

Stop with the R talks.

DB101.


Everybody hurts. It's part of life. Don't miss the good stuff.