standing for me

[B-V2]

Thanks so much you guys, although I don't deserve the praise for the PMA at the moment, since I'm sobbing semi-uncontrollably for no specific reason. I'm not crying because I want my crazy H back. I'm just grieving. I wish I had someone to just hold me and let me cry. I hate this so much.

Ahoy: Take the praise for the PMA, because you grieving and therefore sobbing semi-uncontrollably this time is all part of our LBS's roller coaster cycle that we have to go through (I had such close to near total bottom cycle two weeks ago for similar reasons. And that is 4 months after my BD date.).
And I can so relate to you stating: " I wish I had someone to just hold me and let me cry. I hate this so much. ", I felt exactly that way then too and it is a very lonely moment then. And still: we do pick ourselves up as you did too, and there is much strength in that - see and acknowledge that for yourself. You are strong, Ahoy.

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and I don't want to draw this process out over the course of the year (maybe that's where I'm a bad DBer -- not being patient enough).

It's stupid to be crying about stupid jerk of an H. I think I'm still in shock that he's doing this at all.

I'm so grateful to all of you for the support. Just wish you lived close by...

You not wanting to draw out the process, and therefore not wanting to stay in limbo for that particular part, does not make you a bad DBer at all in my eyes. Keep concentrating on you and your daughter!