You had 2 affairs and now your actions must speak loud and clear. Cat and mouse is a dangerous game when you shattered her trust in you.

Earning her respect and trust will take a lot of time and patience. I believe that DBusting 180 does not apply in your situation.

M:25 years at BD w/ 2 daughters
BD: 5/14
Separated 6/14 - H moved cross country w/OW
D Final 9/17

“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.”
― Maya Angelou