It doesn't feel like a fairytale anymore...

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Help! I checked into H's flight home tonight to see if his flight was on time and found that he has ANOTHER flight booked to come back to SFO from New Jersey for NEXT weekend as well. The big thing is, this flight is booked with the OW listed as a 2nd passenger... I am freaking out! Is he planning to bring OW here and introduce our kids to her this soon? The little ones don't even know that he wants a divorce yet and I'm REALLY not ready to have them met "her"... H does not know that I still get his flight notifications so he does not know that I know about this other flight and that I have now found out who the OW is. I assume he will bring it up to me sometime this weekend (on second thought, IF he shows, he may not even show and he may just have not had the guts to tell me that yet) and I'm not sure the best way to react to all of it.

The really ironic thing is, I found her Facebook profile (the little I can see of it) and she is younger (no surprise) and looks totally different than me (dark hair and eyes, too much makeup, long extensions hair, typical of what a man in MLC would want). She is beautiful, I will admit that. But, here's the ironic thing: her only "likes" she has is for Godvine and the church near where they are living. Ummm... if you are claiming to be a Christian don't you know that he can't have a marriage with you and still be in God's grace? I just want to sit them both down and talk some sense into them!

So, how should I handle all of this? Obviously I can't tell him I know about who she is and their flights back here, and I can't *really* assume that he is coming to see his family or the kids (they *could* just be going to San Francisco) but I think the reality is obvious. In fact, if he is here on Halloween and doesn't bother to come see his kids or even let them know he is in town he is in even a worse head space than I thought.

They say it gets much worse before it gets better. Now I'm just praying that she is not pregnant, it seems like that is the only thing that could hurt me even worse at this point. I'm certainly ready for things to get better, or easier.

Thanks!