Hello one and all,
Thank you everyone for the kind words and ideas from my last thread. Lost my internet connection so I've been away. Turns out I had the beginnings of pneumonia and I just got back to work (at the office) today. I hardly ever get sick with colds and such but I'm sure stress has much to do with my illness. My W has had my D14 all this time since I was sick and we didn't want her getting anything. Yesterday I went to pick her up from school and she tells me that she has plans for that night with a friend and "needs" to stay with her mom. Also that Friday night is the "big game" at school and since Saturday is her mom's birthday she wants to stay there. I really think the birthday thing is an excuse. She also told me that she kissed a boy for the first time and he was "very bad at it, like a dead fish". I laughed and said that since this was her first, how does she know that just isn't how it's done? All kidding aside I'm worried about her. She wants to stay at her mom's because her friends are all there and she can do whatever she wants until her mom gets back from work late. She has changed so much in the short time she has gone to school there and without supervision she may just go too far. She is still wanting to stay there during the week because of school being so far from where I live.

I think it's great that she talks to me about these things and trusts me enough that she knows I won't overreact or freak out but I'm also worried about her and miss her very much. This is such an important time in her life and she really needs me to help her not make mistakes. I know how much more trouble I would have gotten into without my dad around at that age. And with her mom just not that interested in what she's doing or worse, not caring, she really needs a stable force around.

Now, about MY life....my parents have really come through for me. They paid the late balance on my car and said that until the end of the year (2 months) they will pay the monthly to give me a chance to catch up. Earlier this week after they heard about my illness they also are sending me some money to pay my late bills. Not a lot but enough to give me a chance to find a new job (hopefully) and at least get some funds coming in. The service they used is taking a long time and if I don't get the funds by tomorrow, my electric will be at stake. I will call again today if the money isn't there by the end of the day. I hate this. I have been able to make a lot of money over the last 20 years and NEVER thought I would ever be in this position again in my life. If only I had known that B-day was coming and that my M didn't have a chance, I would have done things so differently. Live and learn.

On the job front, I decided that I just have to expand my job hunt to not only south of where I live (my W moved almost 30 miles south) but also north. I live between two large metro areas (Austin and San Antonio) and have worked in both cities over the years. In the last couple days I heard from 3 places. 2 of them are for commision only jobs but one isn't but it is also fairly far north and that would mean I couldn't get my D14 to school so she wouldn't be able to stay with me during the week! I really hope something south comes up but at this point beggars can't be choosers and she can't stay with me at all if I don't have electric and water! Bad enough that my internet is down as she will need that for school and to keep in touch with her friends!

In the past whenever something has happened like a company I worked for closed or I lost a job, I was always able to get something just as good or better. This time I may have to settle for going down a bit and trying to work my way up. I am waiting for the money guy at my office to come in and talk about my getting some funds again. We will see... Thanks everyone for being there when I needed some support so badly!