S, I know it's hard for people like us, who want to understand the whys and hows, to just accept our feelings.
There really isnt any right or wrong way to feel. You will be up one day, down the next. Sometimes its hour to hour. There will be days when you dont think of him at all and days when you cant get him out of your head.
The thing is that the way this goes down doesnt make any sense. It isnt the way things are supposed to happen.
Thats why its important to focus on you and your kids. Its why its an opportunity to look within and figure yourself out.
I believe that this journey was meant to happen in the way it does. If we are really lucky, we take what we are supposed to from it.
I know that you want, in some ways, to know what's next. I know because I was the same way in the beginning. We cant rush this along, much as we want to. You have to let it play out.
So, feel what you do and then keep moving forward.
