Married young, W had affair w/ coworker

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Past few days have been rough. Have had very little contact with W, she hasn't called or texted me at all and I haven't either. I've been keeping busy but not seeing any visible changes is pretty rough. I feel stuck in limbo right now and it's painful.

I've started to read DB and I'm convinced divorce would be a terrible outcome, but I see little hope of reconciliation at this point. W seems to be staying far away from me.

I feel like I understand better what caused the room in our relationship for an A to occur. I gave my wife little attention on a daily basis, complained about work a lot but did nothing to improve my situation, ignored her encouragement when she tried to help us live healthier and exercise more. She was always available to me for support and was a really good wife, but I didn't recognize her efforts at the time. I rarely reciprocated the level of support and encouragement she gave me. I think she has begun to resent marriage because of what our relationship was like.

I know I can't change the past, or make decisions for her, and I'm trying to focus my energy on letting the hurt and pain I feel drive me to improve myself so no matter the outcome I am a better man and husband to my lovely wife or another woman, or if I'm single, however God wills it.