Thanks bklyn. I'm at the gym now, drenched in sweat. Came straight here.
I guess there's positives that she's definitely seen all of my changes. And I am very grateful for those changes. I just have this fear that they don't matter. That this isn't really about me, but about her escaping into a fantasy, mixed up along the way by her drinking and her health. I have to be at peace with that.
M: 33 W: 33 M: 9 T: 10 3 S's: 8, 6 and 1.5 BD: 8/3/14 Living together