Well I wish I would had seen the praise y'all gave me got before I blew it earlier today. H sent me the rest of the email he got interrupted from writing yesterday and he made a remark about how he knows he is missing out on experiences with D's and that he is trying to accommodate as many people as he can while getting some of his "most fundamental desires met". He went on to say that he wants to be part of our lives, etc. Well… I went into a psycho rage and texted and called and emailed demanding to know if he felt that there was any chance for us. He said that he cannot be with me intimately because I basically castrated him with our sexless marriage (I do not blame him for feeling this way). He said it would not be physically possible for him to be with me because he is not attracted to me in that way anymore. He said he's dead there and he can't get that back. He went on to say he loves me deeply and misses me but there is nothing left romantically between us. I was hysterical (OMG blubbering, pleading, etc.) telling him we could work on the intimacy and fix it. He said trying to work on it would be a huge "turn off". I think at one point he said, "Do you hear yourself?" I wish I could start this day over!!!!!!! I would not have done this and I could kick myself. Suggestions?
Me: 54 H: 58 Married: 29 years Together 33 years H admitted to A: 5/29/14 H moved out :6/15/14 OW lives 4 hours away and "occasionally" stays weekends with H D23 D18
