Ok, I've calmed down a bit. And maybe I have reached a new step. I just don't have much interest in him right now. i'm at the point where I cannot completely put on a smiley face without any expectations or feelings behind it at all... but I sent him a logistical email today (just to confirm something we had needed to figure out) that was totally detached. Not friendly, not angry. Just the facts, ma'am.
His reply was similar in tone.
I think I'm better off without him. I mean, I certainly am at the moment.
Aside from the massive amount of grief I've had to work through, I'm stronger, happier, more confident, more at peace than perhaps ever in my life.
