Hey Bright. What a crummy thing to have to deal with. The uncertainty stinks. I can't encourage you enough to keep moving on with yourself. I think it is Ok to focus on yourself and try to move on. By that I don't mean you are giving up on him. I just mean, you will start a new life for you. And when/if he comes a knocking... you will show him what you're about, and he can show you what he's about. Then take if from there.
You are an amazing woman, Bright. I wish you were closer so we could do some GAL together. But I know you are very, very far away from me. So, find some things you can do for you. I like you had someone to go to the vacation home with. What about doing something different, too? Maybe going someplace new for the weekend? That could be fun!