I cannot accept that this is it.

[billman12]

I looked flexible, but not a doormat. I might need her too one day.

I agree with this. I have come to learn that I need to be available with a limit. This will be perceived by her that the situation is not as optimal as it would be if we were together.

Again, I am not reflecting that as intent, merely as a hopeful observation of what could come of limited availability.