GALbaby & Nero --- totally terrified but I tell myself to "fake it until I make it" plaster on that smile and keep taking it one step at a time. I hung up a large picture over the fireplace. I had never done that before by myself.

I am learning to do yard work. H always took that on and now I am learning slowly.

Everything and everyone still scares me a bit but I just try to be brave. It is only here that I let my true fears out. I guess what terrifies me the most is that I don't trust my inner voice. If it could be so wrong about the man I lived with and loved for so long then how can I rely on that voice to guide me? That's the dilemma for me anyway.


M:25 years at BD w/ 2 daughters
BD: 5/14
Separated 6/14 - H moved cross country w/OW
D Final 9/17

“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.”
― Maya Angelou