Raliced and maybell, at first I was stumped and overwhelmed by the prospect of something wild and crazy because to me that meant risky. I couldn't think of anything and immediately began to feel boring and unexciting but maybell, your talk of writing is interesting. I've always wanted to write a memoir. I know, it's rather self-indulgent but I've always wanted to highlight that child abuse is not an affliction of the poor and uneducated.
I am one of three kids from two parents with highly advanced degrees in difficult subject matter, I was born in Riyadh, Saudi Arabia, traveled the world before age 6, have attended 10 different schools through high school, left home at 16 to live in foster care, lived in a group home for a year, lived with my swim coaches my senior year, paid for my own high school tuition so I could finally go to ONE school for four straight years, got a full swimming scholarship to college, blah, blah, blah...
I don't know... Perhaps it's an interesting story to someone, with insane parts much like Augusten Burroughs' memoirs. I don't know where or how to begin but I could take a class, I guess. Something to consider right?
The reality is, maybell, my life completely lacks purpose. I need to find a purpose. I am a professional photographer and have wanted to work on a personal project for years but that too feels rather self-serving and indulgent. Maybe that's my excuse to not have to start, eh? I have two family sessions this weekend, which are always fun but I've lost my passion for it. So many people expect amazing photos for close to nothing. Very little value is placed on the art and talent of portraiture by the general public. It's shocking how many people say, "I can't spend more than $X, is that sufficient" and X ends up being 1/5th of my session fee and they want the digital photos for free. It's a hard business to have in LA where everyone is a "fauxtographer". It's discouraging.
I need to hear all this encouragement. I do eventually come out of my negative fog, I just need to know there's hope within me for something better and I've not seen that. I'll try to put the hope there since I can't find it. Here's hoping.
Zimmy, I can't imagine the pain of being overlooked despite incredible chemistry. Sounds like he's avoiding something with OW. I'm so sorry for your sitch. ((((Hugs))))
