Thanks for responding.

I have those hot and cold moments.
I will very soon be a completely improved person with excellent health, diet and exercise regimen. Business connections and opportunities coming that are seismic. I want my wife in on the journey. She was there for the lows. Come enjoy the good times too.

Patience will come in time. Pray meditate or do yoga. Gal I need more of. I will join a social club soon as my businesses are running well. Go to church or a temple weekly too. Talk honestly with the priest or leader. It helps.
I have been completely detached and not one word call or text in four months. Painful. But I'm becoming zen about it more.