Recent Separation...trying to cope

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She hasn't told much of her family yet. She's only talked to her older brother briefly about it. She confides in a close coworker girlfriend who was also recently divorced (little over a year ago), which worries me a bit. However, she hasn't talked to any attorney yet.

I failed to mention that I also got the ILYBNILWY statement. She also mentioned early on that she didn't see a future with me and she wasn't sure that she could ever have that deep connection with me again, which really hurt.

There was a talk we had 1 week after the separation that I regretfully asked if there was any chance for reconciliation and she responded that it was an unfair question, which I understood after it was already too late.

In regards to the porn issue, I have since quit cold turkey last month and continue to avoid it, which has proven to be pretty easy so far. Since then I have felt a huge change in my attitude and confidence which is helping get through this.

I really do love my W with all my heart and still have a little hope that she might change her mind and decide to want to work things out. It is still early in the process so I do realize that I have to keep working on myself to change and become a better person. It definitely is tough going through the motions though.