Ok. I'd agree that my thoughts would govern my attitude and all I feel at the moment is defeat. But I honestly do not know what to do that would give me any chance of saving my marriage.
I'm pretty sure I'm up to LRT and having to 180 everything. The situation right now is that I'm working away (can't do anything about that) and she is raising the money to petition a divorce and then get the money for a deposit on an apartment and move out - the aim before Christmas. Then I'd be left with fixing up the house and selling it.
I asked for us to attempt counselling - she said there's no point given she checked out.
I asked what it would take for her to trust me again - she said nothing could make her trust me again.
I asked whether she has the ability to forgive and move forward together - she says that my actions are unforgiveable.
I asked whether it was possible for us to agree not to discuss relationship and just share activities together/have fun together - the answer was no, she's wants a divorce.
So, I clueless - how can I hope to revitalise this relationship. I'm also emotionally shattered to bits and scared to even think about trusting anyone again, let alone the wife that promised to always be there for me no matter what. I know this is unhealthy and I'll need counselling to heal from this, but it's not a good place to come from to have an iota of hope.
