Snapped out of my funk a little yesterday, so sent W a text apologizing for the lack of communication as I was dealing with some emotions and asked if she'd like to talk later in the day about kids/budget (she had proposed in her earlier email). She responded that she had been feeling overwhelmed and emotional too and that she'd drop the kids off later. She needed a 'me day' to relax and decompress (she seems to be racking those up!). She asked about meeting tonight instead.
Last night, she had to drop something off for the kids, so text me that she had left it on the front porch. I asked why she hadn't at least knocked and she said she didn't want to stir the dogs up and was tired. Then another text that she didn't think I wanted to talk to her anyways.
(2x4 alert)- I broke and responded that 'Truth is, I miss you.' She responded that she missed me too, but our current R is not healthy- up and down, back and forth. She then asked if I wanted to come by her new place for dinner this week or if that was too painful. I told her I'd think about it. We briefly talked about why we stopped going to MC with her reasoning being that she didn't feel like we were making progress. Not sure what she was expecting since we only went for a month.
As far as I know, she's still planning on meeting with an atty today to discuss our sitch. Will be interesting to see if she mentions moving forward with dissolution tonight when we meet to discuss kids/budget.
So in the past 2 weeks, I've heard that she misses me, still loves me and will always love me, hopes that we find our way back to each other eventually, has asked me over for dinner at her place...yet stopped going to MC and talks of proceeding with dissolution. I've got to accept that she needs this time to work on herself- if you love something, you've got to set it free...
