Zimmy, I hear you. My fear is being friend-zoned. H has already said to me that he doesn't see me romantically so I guess I'm already there but that kind of thing can change, right?
The person he is now could very well be who he really is but it's unlikely. It's hard to know. I am the last person to be giving out advice on this journey and process because I'm fighting it and struggling through it every single hour. There's a lot of wisdom doled out on this thread, zimmy. I wish I put it all into practice as well as I can but maybe you can.