And. .. f'ing PMS. Just had a scheduling conversation in person. .. I was not feeling my most pleasant. And while it wasn't completely horrible, I certainly reinforced his narrative. But today I was just tired of it all.
I'm not perfect, so if being perfect is the only way I can have a snow balls chance of making this work. ..after a year... I don't think I am strong enough for that...or most importantly, I don't think I have the desire for that.
