I cannot accept that this is it.

[Mozza]

I know what the right things are to do, but I find myself thinking of what I could do or try to "speed" things up. Then I calm down and realize I must not do anything. It's an endless pattern. I need help controlling it.

Oh, how I know what you're talking about. Thankfully, it usually takes some time to pick up the phone or write an email, so we should be able to control ourselves. I think about it, but I never get close to doing it. No contact since Friday in my case (she emailed me about a discovery she made at a restaurant we found together... sigh) and I try not to imagine how much fun she has on her week-end of freedom (I have the kids and we're having fun).

The good thing is that you can accumulate points by doing nothing. Keep doing just that!