Try to remember that your relationship began as friends and then moved on to a more romantic/serious one. It's one minute at a time to one hour at a time and so on.
Try to keep the focus on you and allow the man upstairs to continue working on your h. There can only be one chef in the kitchen for now and that is the man upstairs...so allow him to continue baste and bake your h up into a mature man who has faced his issues and resolved them.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
