3 months after BD, the roller coaster ride hurts

[devotee]

MC has been going decent. We've had good days for the most part. He still won't visit my family or say he loves me. We are supposed to have a Date Night once a week according to our MC contract and we have been doing that but he dislikes calling it Date Night. He is vocal about hating all my friends. When we're alone it's amazing. Any one else enters the equation and he just rags on them and my DJ job. Still so hard. I have several guys trying to pursue me but I turn them down and proudly wear my wedding ring. I do feel like a chump. Some days I feel like giving up and just letting go. I feel taken for granted but I love him so much. I would do anything to be an expert on detaching.