Claire, Have you read any of Magic's other threads? You may want to read them to have a better understanding of what has been transpiring in Magic's world for the last year or so. The questions you are asking Magic are excellent and they have been asked many times on her threads.
Reading her threads may give you more insight into her situation.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
