Thanks for the replies. I thought I had written something the other day, but it was written on my kindle so it may not have gone through. I am very aware that I am in a better spot than many. I am just trying my best to avoid it from getting worse. I am slowly working on things to GAL. I hadn't realized how much I depended on her for validation of my own self worth. It is confusing: she says she doesn't know if she wants to stay with me and had resolved in her mind that things will not get better yet she is making plans for the future (vacations) with me. She will hug and kiss me, but it is distant (if that makes sense) . I will continue to work on myself and see if things change. It is just very sad and confusing.
M-44 W-44 Sons- 11&14 Married- 18 Together- 27 Separation mentioned- 9-29-14 Still together, but not "together" "if you feel rotten and forgotten, remember there'll be better days."
