I am feeling the distance with xh. Maybe I am accepting that he is happy and really committed to this new life. At first, I thought that he had made an impulsive decision and that he would quickly regret it. Well... I don't know either way. But, I guess for my own sanity, I have to realize that he may truly be happy.
Mighty, I've been doing this today and it's not serving me well. Lost in:
"What if he is really happy in his new life?"
"Maybe, he was right to leave me."
"Maybe, I had it coming? Maybe, I wasn't what he needed?"
Anyway...bottom line: It's none of my business at this point. He made a decision to leave his family and he needs to live with it, one way or another. Losing myself in the what-ifs and woulda, coulda, shoulda and all the other mind-reading isn't going to do a damn thing for me.
Personally, I don't see how someone can do so much damage and, then, walk away and be happy. I see my dad, who walked away and did the same thing...he ended up with a Ferrari and all kinds of money and I wouldn't say that he is content with himself in a way that I would want for myself.
Old Sins Cast Long Shadows...Leave that for your XH to figure out on his own.
Wow, I needed to hear that myself today.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
