OK everyone, I have a few questions for all my LBS friends! Funny how I have never met anyone from the board but there are some here whose opinions and insights I trust more than 99% of the people I know. There are just so many smart, insightful, generous men and women on this sight. There are some who, from getting to know their thoughts, feelings, what is important to them, it really boggles the mind how their S could ever leave them MLC or not. I see so many here that have had their worlds torn apart without warning. Have endured so much pain and hurt and still take the time to help others who are going through much of the same. Who can still find humor and find time to laugh and make others who are in pain laugh along with them. Then there are the those that can see right through you and push you to look at things a different way. I'm so thankful that I found you all!!
So, the questions....someone suggested that I try doing Uber. Where I would give people rides and the payment is all done through a phone app. I don't live in an area that they serve but the city is about 30 miles up the road and I was thinking that maybe, at least on weekends, I could try doing that.(as long as my car doesn't get repo'd!) I was wondering if anyone here has had any experience with Uber or knows someone who does or even just has heard anything good or bad about doing it. I would have loved if they had this when I was in my 20's! I would have made money and probably had fun at the same time. Su@k's that I have to even think about it but I have to do something proactive or I won't make it!
Also, does anyone have any ideas that I may have overlooked. I hesitate to post on FB as the owner of the company would see it and until I at least find a new job, I can still keep trying to make some sales there at the same time. Not only that, to be honest, I'm still hoping that once some funds come in, I can get a draw. Knowing that he was paying the guy that just quit, I don't think it's wrong of me if I did that and still left if I find a different position.
I still haven't been able to get ahold of my parents. They aren't very tech savvy and when they aren't home, they don't even have their cells with them or at least have them on! It was so funny watching my D19 trying to explain how texting works and show my dad how to do it, last time they were in town. They both have the old fashioned "clam shell" cell phones and they don't do apps at all. I did give them a tablet a couple years ago and my dad has started texting through that but half the time it doesn't work. One time when they called he was upset because the girls and I weren't answering his texts. The thing is, we just weren't getting them! I'm sure somewhere in their house they have a VCR blinking 12:00 all day and night!
I just can't stand not knowing a way out of this mess! I have noticed one thing that is different. I'm not angry or blaming my W for this sitch. In the past I would get so angry that she left me knowing that I really needed her support financially for the first time in 20+ years. I would think how I wouldn't have ever done the same to her, no matter how "bad" I felt about the M. Back when she was depressed and hadn't gone to the dr. about it yet, there were times that it got really bad. I couldn't understand why she was acting the way she was, not doing anything but sleeping and playing video games, not taking care of the kids (they were young at the time) and I got to the point every now and again of asking myself why I'm even staying. But each and every time I thought how much I still really did love her. That she wouldn't be able to take care of herself in the condition she was in. There was no way that I would EVER just give up on her. Once she was diagnosed with depression, I at least knew what was going on and that she was sick. It kind of became whenever she acted out back then I would think "That wasn't my W. That was the disease" and that helped me see how she was hurting so much more than I was. Until now, I would think about this and get angry because she didn't care about any of that. She just wanted what she wanted and I wasn't anything but a "problem" that needed to be gotten rid of.
Right now, I understand that I have to stop thinking like that. It doesn't do a damn thing or help me in any way. I know that I am in charge of my life and I need to stop thinking about the past. Hey, at least that's progress in getting through this horrible period in my life. All I need to do is change my sitch. Some day, hopefully soon, this will have been nothing but a bump in the road. A learning experience. All I have to do is make it happen.
Sorry for the long winded post. Got to try and stop doing that.....
