need to GAL

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Just writing a journal post on here. Last night, we went to H's apt to spend time with him, he insisted and cooked dinner. He missed us, i guess. We were just talking and he told me that his best friend's mom tried to set him up with her sister with the comments, " you should date her, she looks just like me and is very active goes to gym and crossfit, just like you, you guys would be perfect together" Thoughts that went through my head but didnt say:
1) wow, this mother of his bestie has some wild fascination for him. She had adviced my H that he should not marry me since I am his first gf, and people dont marry their 1st. She has been around him since he was really little but I dont know why she has such special interest in him. H is just her son's friend. She, along with her daughter and sons were supportive of H when he announced to them he was not happy with me or the marriage. They told him that he should do what makes him happy and it will hurt for a while but he will be fine and so will the baby. I wanted to say so many things but surprisingy i kept shut and didnt let the news affect my mood last night.
2) Another thought was how could she push him already when he isnt even divorced yet. So disgusting fake people.Note: She was having an affair with a married man and got preg with his baby which is why they got married. prior, she had 3 kids with 2 different men. the history just does not paint a good pic with her morals.
3) I wondered why husband told me that info. But, I rmb in the past few months when he told me little news about girls, I would get upset and it showed in my face and affected my mood then he would just shut down. This time though, I was able to still be upbeat and jokingly told him he probably should date her but he needs to rmb she looks just like the sister, have fun being intimate. lol. some fetish she has i guess, i told him.He didnt seem that interested though. I know in the past he would tell me things like that if he found it weird so i guess its a good thing. But, Oh makes me mad when he interacts with that family. He thinks they are family ..but i am just being patient letting nature run its course till things fizzle out with them because H doesnt really like them in the first place but he thinks he does because they have been oh so supportive for him to be divorced because it seems like noone in their family liked me to begin with. But, hopefully my H still has his brain.

I just had to rant since I cant talk about it with anyone. H and i have been getting along well. He actually has been kissing me when he sees me and baby too. He isnt going publicly affectionate yet but im still waiting...but moving on too. It does not matter to me if he is with me or without. Either ways, I feel very positive about my own future. He still does not want people tagging pics of us on fb but privately he has been nicer, he has learned to sort of control his mood disorder and short outburst of anger. He even told me last week that he was sorry for getting mad for no reason because usually he will say mean things and say im glad we arent going to be together, i wish i never met you. But , maybe my DB techniques are working because when i asked him if he just says that when he is mad, he said he does and that he actually doesnt hate me or anything....

I guess, I'll take that and be glad for it is definitely a progress. I used to see him in the middle of the week too but I think i am going to do a 180 and just spend weekends with him...He always wants baby and me to watch football with him and spend weekends with him.. While writing this, I just had a deja vu moment...may have dreamed this long time ago.. weird.

well sorry for the rant/ramble.