~~~ I could really use some direction/advice on how to BE during the next 24 hours on this overnight stay. I want to enjoy myself but I have been putting pressure on myself because of these last few posts. What is the best way to get my control back? ... did I lose it? [/quote]

MM - you should be yourself. Acting a certain way, modified to the situation is not genuine and will not lead to healthy and happy reunion. What is wrong with being MM?