Moving towards mediation, need to stop limbo

[shodan]

F Starsky, if I knew, I would not be here.

I am not sure I re-attracted her vs. she realized what she was doing to her family. I definitely have backed off a bit. I am GALing a decent amount and being super positive around her. But, for the past few weeks, while on one hand discussing D and going to mediators to show that I am serious, I also have been fun and flirty. On Tuesday, when I spoke with her on the phone, she said "I have no feelings for you and do not want to commit to working on our M until those feelings come back." Not exactly a positive vibe. Then, I don't talk with her or text with her for two days and Thursday night she hugs me and says she missed me. And based on what she said about having a panic attack and the fact that she probably deleted the OM from her phone (no other explanation for why his # would come up without it being associated with a specific name), she may be coming around.

Could she have deleted his "name/number" from her phone but still continue with the A. Absolutely. But it definitely makes it more difficult to text the OM.

I want to show her that the path home is smooth but I also do not want to pursue her and push her away.