H's MLC #5

[woundedfool]

I dont know,,,this hurts,,,this really really really hurts.
I dont want to keep feeling like this, him not sleeping in bed, not speaking should NO longer affect me like this,,,

You seem to be really focused on the actual act of slumber together.

Can you give some thoughts on that.

This is going to come off really, really bad but.... I have been sleeping so much better solo, I don't know if it was because my exW had to have certain temperatures, fans, sheets, comforters, heating blankets, tv on in the background, memory foam this and that, a bedtime lotion, sometimes the right side, sometimes the left side.... and a laundry list of all sorts of other things

Why don't you use this as a experiment and monitor? Start peeling away some of the layers of things that you may or may not do for actual sleep.