South74. Sleeping is tough I used to be head hit the pillow alseep but know lucky now to get 2-3 hours without waking. You seem to want to wait for your W to return. You are a very strong individual. It would be easier to cut and run. Keep working on you and see how it develops. At the moment my wife is going from ice queen to crying about her problems and Iife. It's a tough station and if you decide to stand then that's your decision With my kids I try to keep them away from the details of W"s friend as she is still their mother and when they look back in 10 years they can make there own minds up It kills me that I can't tell them how I feel but they are kids so they come first. Take care
